Dear Logbook, 16th day of the fifth trip.
In memoriam María Jesús.
Diary, as I write this to you, I do it with a tear on my face. I did not know Mª Jesus personally, we had spoken on the phone and she gave me lots of encouragement at the beginning of this hard expedition, back in August and September. She had gone through Hodgkin’s Lymphoma and for two years, as she told me, she was in complete remission. Something has happened in these past two months that has made him no longer be with us. R.I.P. Mª Jesus I can only thank you for those words and encouragement. From above you will lead us to many. The words you told me in text and audio conveyed joy. What a pity not to have had the opportunity to have met you in person. I’m very sorry from the heart. Thank you. Thank you.
My Diary, the next thing I tell you, has or becomes less important after that of Mª Jesus. Yesterday as I told you, the ground crew came. This visit threw me two good things. The first is that they were able to extract the precious red liquid from the catheter. The second is that the results of the analysis of the precious liquid come to indicate that the neutrophils continue to rise and the value has already entered the desired fork. All right! And that the rest of the values continue to rise. In these photos I show the values of analytics since I started offshore travel.
Today, shortly, one of the most long-awaited days will dawn. Today is December 24, but besides that date is the day I will see my parents and siblings. They, who from the distance have been encouraging me, listening to me in my long talks with my parents during my walks, once enduring my bad character (I apologize again for it). Well, today we will meet again. And surely some tears will fall, as happens right now while I write these lines. The distance has made this expedition even harder. I don’t see Susana and Mario since June. Eva since August and my parents because a week after August, the week in which the biopsy was done and revealed that my fevers were due to that unwanted “friend”: the oncological disease Hodgkin‘s Lymphoma. So, today we will see and embrace again. Well, God willing, recently I was born again.
Life sometimes puts those stones in our shoes that make it harder for us to walk. Those stones or difficulties that we draw with more or less joy, optimism, determination, etc. But sometimes, it is sad or hard, that until that happens, we do not realize the importance we give to certain things in life, which are not so important. And like others that we did not value so much or did not give and paid attention to, we now give it to them. I will always say that I feel LUCKY. In this expedition I am learning many things. Although it seems that the expedition is going well, it is very hard. In the physical it has not been too much, but in the psychological, yes. Never in my life did I imagine that I could be going through something like that. But this is how things come, and this is how we must deal with them. I try to be an optimistic sailor and think positive. But being consistent and knowing that I don’t have a cold. That I am being treated for cancer disease or cancer. Yes, which is one of the best cure prognosis; but always, like everyone else, we will have that sword above our head. That sword that due to the treatment received makes us more sensitive now and then to certain diseases. But you know that, just as I am facing this expedition, if another one arrives, because as Mª Jesus told me, we will remain optimistic. If I am and I am encouraged, my environment can be too.
Daily, I know I’m a heavyweight. But I encourage you, you read me. Stop for a moment and think if your life priorities are really in the right order. We are in time to reorder them and I encourage you to do so. That band that I dropped during the expedition has made me see life in a more wonderful way.
My dear diary, today is a sad day. A friend has crossed the rainbow and from there she will be helping us.