Dear Logbook, twenty-eighth day of the fifth trip.
Yesterday the day was as I told you. In the morning it was time to fill in the pantry and in the afternoon I would go with the family to the island of Djurgården. Few more news.
Today has risen with sunshine, but cold. Something normal at this time of year. At noon we will show another part of the city to my father-in-law and we will stay at the Olympic Stadium with the family to have lunch out. In the afternoon as we return from the walk, rest shift and maybe some more box. And at night time to wait for the arrival of the presents of the Three Wise Men. For me this year 2020 the best possible gift is to hear the words Complete Remission in a few days. Better gift than that, few there can be, besides continuing to have the wonderful family that I have.
As I read yesterday in a doctor’s writing, when you face a disease like Hodgkin’s Lymphoma and know that you fight for yourself and for those you have at home, it is somewhat easier. It does not mean that it is easy, but having reasons to do so, makes the expedition face differently and spiritually. I have always said it and I keep saying it, for those I have at home I must not stop fighting with all my strength. I could not forgive myself if I did not put my utmost effort into it. Knowing that there will be better and worse days. This expedition is not being a path of roses. That this disease or cancer is one of the most curable, does not mean that with treatments it is not hard physically and psychologically. Since I heard the song Living by Rozalén and Estopa, I listen to it very frequently and I feel very identified in what it says. I put a few sentences of the song and the link to the video on YouTube that they made on the occasion of the Cadena 100 concert.
Here a series of phrases that during this journey I have lived and fully share:
You know, it was like a giant wave. It wiped out everything and left me naked in front of the sea.
But you know, I know well what it is to live There is no time to hate anyone. Now I know how to laugh.
Maybe it had to happen. It is NOT fair but only this way you learn to value.
You know, I’ve been very scared. This bug is an abyss. I get tired of the body. It breaks my soul and to cry
This life offered me a new opportunity
And you know, I know well what it is to live. There’s no time to hate anyone, now laugh
And my Diary, tomorrow much more and better.